
Kneading Bread
My fingers, my shirt, the counter and the mixer were sticky with bread dough as I pondered the recipe. How much flour must I add to get a smooth, elastic texture?
And more importantly, why was I baking bread at all? After avoiding some common pitfalls of coronavirus confinement, such as hoarding toilet paper and binge-watching Netflix, here I was, baking bread for the first time.
It made no sense. Bread is readily available, but flour and yeast are in short supply. Even more puzzling, my husband Moshe and I rarely buy bread, which we think of as “bad carbs.” And I was making not just any bread, but my Grandmother Libbie’s whole wheat bread that she started baking about 1885.
In the kitchen I’m more like Lucille Ball than Julia Child, but the 117-word family recipe seemed simple and the ingredients were few: 100% whole wheat flour, brown sugar, bacon grease, a handful of salt and yeast. (Someone had helpfully translated my grandmother’s “handful” into one large tablespoon.)
Even though I never bake, I had everything I needed, which I took as a good omen. It was surprising that I even had bacon grease since we eat little meat. I found three packages of dry yeast left over from a daughter’s visit, and three mismatched bread pans in the cupboard.
I was ready for the challenge. Although my grandmother cooked on a wood stove and kneaded the bread with her own hands, I used a gas stove and a Sunbeam mixer with a dough hook. As the recipe instructed, I added warm water and a little sugar to the yeast in a small bowl, which I set aside.
Next, I stirred four cups of warm water into the bacon fat and brown sugar until they dissolved. Then my problems began. I started adding the flour, beating after each cupful to achieve a stiff batter but the recipe didn’t say how much flour to add and I wasn’t sure what a stiff batter looked like.
While I dithered, the yeast began to overflow. I quickly plopped the small bowl inside a somewhat larger bowl and returned to the batter conundrum. When the yeast threatened to spill out of the second bowl, I quickly added it to the batter along with two eggs.

Exuberant Yeast
After much beating, I decreed the batter stiff enough and took it out of the mixing bowl. The recipe said to knead the dough on a breadboard until I could handle it without flour. But the dough was too gooey and when I tried to add more flour with my sticky fingers, the flour bag got covered as well. Now I knew why I hadn’t baked bread before.
But I persevered, continuing to add more and more flour to the sticky mess until I could work with the dough. I had to let it double in size (how was I supposed to gauge that?) and knead it down twice before I put it in the bread pans and let it double again.
I had reserved about a quarter of the dough to make cinnamon rolls, as my grandmother had. The recipe didn’t include the filling for the rolls, so I rolled out the dough and added a lot of cinnamon, butter and brown sugar just like I remembered.

Oven Door Stopper
When I finally shoved the bread and rolls in the oven, I was exhausted, but my trials weren’t over. The oven door refused to stay closed. With no time to figure out why I grabbed a chair and propped it against the door.
While the bread baked, I cleaned the globs of dough off the mixer, the counter, the mixing bowl and myself. I am quite sure my grandmother’s kitchen never looked like that.

Mixer Mess
When I took out the loaves, they were a little flat and misshapen and not the golden brown I remembered. But when I cut my first slice and added some butter, I was taken back 60 years — welcomed home from school on Friday by the smell of freshly baked bread and cinnamon rolls. We could eat a sweet, chewy roll right then.

Sharon’s Bread
My grandmother, Elizabeth Franklin Robinson, had foreshadowed this moment in a verse she wrote called “Ode to Bread.”
My grandchildren, too, will remember
The mixing and kneading they’ve shared.
They too have felt peace and contentment,
When on hot buttered rolls they have fared.
The poem also reveals why I was compelled to bake bread, more than half a century later, during a pandemic:
And the bread just removed from the oven,
Made our home seem a refuge from fear.
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[Click here to see the full poem and Libbie’s painting that shows what the bread should really look like: Ode to Bread ]